Singing in His presence

When I woke up this morning, I could hear different sounds of birds. There usually are house birds outside my window and I would hear them but this morning there were no such birds in my window and instead I could hear different birds from a distance. It actually felt nice just staying in my bed and just listening to them… after some time being still and just listening to the birds, I said a hurried prayer and decided to get my guitar and my gospel song book and just strum and sang while still seated in my bed. It was still early so I just played softly so as not to wake the others. I was just randomly flipping through the pages of the songbook and singing those songs I have heard recently in some of our assemblies. I eventually found myself concentrating on two songs – God alone and Strong and Faithful. The two songs stuck with me and kept echoing even while I was doing other activities during the day.

And as I was singing in my bed, my mind was thinking… wondering… asking…

The Lord is strong and He is faithful to me yet as I sing God alone I ask why is it that He is not enough for me? Why is it that there are days when my mind is focused on a lot of other things instead of Him? Why is it that there are days when I feel anxious and sad? Why is it that I crave for other things (ahh! even craving for a hamburger the other day!) instead of being content on whatever He gives me?

Maybe He is asking me that too and calling me. Maybe He is reminding me of what He is to me and what I am to Him. But I really did not answer my questions. I just continued with my singing and enjoyed the company of God in those songs. And the birds were singing with me too. It was a special time and maybe it was not really time for asking but a time to just be and enjoy the presence…

Hamburger

I was walking towards my ride when I noticed two men with sacks tapping the window of a Pizza hut parlor asking for food from some of the customers. I couldn’t see the reaction of the customer but I could see that the men weren’t moving out from the glass window. I passed them and just one store beside the parlor was Jollibee. They definitely serve faster there so I got in and ordered two regular hamburgers for take out. It wasn’t long before I have two hamburgers in my hand but when I got out of Jollibee to go to the men they were gone! I walked a bit farther to see if they were still around but they were nowhere in sight! Ahh, my estimation was wrong, they didn’t stay long on the window after all.

Now I have two hamburgers and I have not eaten hamburger in a long time since I discovered that meat gave me tummy ache!

So, whom to give the hamburgers? I saw another man who was seated facing the wall but he was busy sorting his scrap plastic bottles so I did not bother him and just walked towards my ride. I still have the hamburgers on my hand and was wondering if I’ll come across someone who would want a hamburger or will I have to bring them home with me. Ah, there’s bound to be lots of street people and… yup, in the middle of the street I saw a group of them. I came near and offered wondering if they will take it. The lady took it and said thanks then the others came to her…

And I continued walking to the direction of my ride but now I was thinking of hamburgers! I only bought small regular hamburgers. I have not eaten hamburger for a long time and now I want to eat a really big juicy HAMBURGER!

I’ve never really craved for hamburger (or meat for that matter) in a long time but suddenly I want to eat hamburger. It has to be big and juicy and real yummy so that even if I get an aching tummy I’d still remember that it was yummy!

I could still imagine it while I was on the bus… thinking that maybe tomorrow I’ll try eating one…

At home… had my supper… fish and veggies and crab! Good food and filling… satisfied…

Then in my room the thought came back…indeed I have not had a hamburger in a very long time it will be nice to eat one sometime :-)

Homeless, not worthless!

I just saw the new ads by Purina on TV while on my way to work…






Pretty neat ads!
Will really catch your attention…
It is definitely a good cause…

Yet while the message in red in the black background flash…
Your mind wanders off…
to street children… to street families… homeless!
How you wish that the text number that follows
Lead you to a government agency or even an NGO
that would take care of them…

because… though they are homeless…
they are definitely not worthless!

FrancisM

Malou, who is always glued on the radio while working suddenly exclaimed “Patay na si Francis Magalona!” (Francis Magalona is dead!) We all fell silent for a while then talks about him begun as Malou mentioned that he died at 12:00 noon, the start of Eat Bulaga where is one of the co-hosts.

He is one great artist and while everyone seems to be talking I couldn’t help myself thinking about one of his songs "Kaleidoscope world" It is one special song for me since it has been one of my inspirations for my Kaleidosthoughts. In fact it was part of my first entry in this blog. It was one great song and I found a youtube entry with artists singing it.



Of course it doesn’t match his own song. Here’s a Youtube link of his song with him, his band and even some of his family members. I would have posted it here except that it can't be embedded :-(

I know being sick was difficult Francis, May you Rest in Peace in your next life and may you continue singing there!

Listening

My boss is on leave till Friday and I borrowed her computer speaker so I have been listening to soft chinese music by shi lan skalski while working in my desk. It is from a bamboo flute CD bought by my boss when they went to Australia.

It is relaxing and it helps since I haven’t been feeling well and work has been stressful lately… so many things on my mind! So many things I have to accomplish! So much work!!! Yet I know more work is better than no work :-)

Music helps…